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No I'm not dead

"Are you sure?" I hear from the peanut gallery and after the last few months I can assure you of this.

on the 15th of August aged 24 I had a stroke while getting ready for work. The stroke was caused by a previously undiagnosed hole in my heart and has left me paralyzed down the left side of my body. I have been in hospital in a rehabilitation unit since getting hours of physio and occupational therapy every day in the hopes of getting better. I've had corrective surgery on my heart which I am told cost well over 100 000 (the piece of metal in my heart closing the hole is valued at about 15 000  and not to mention the helicopter ride($80 000) and numerous ct scans mri's and other tests.

All I can say is thank God for a free health system.

Since the stroke I'm lucky to have discovered few if any losses to my cogitative ability.(Although the paralysis is enough for me to deal with thank you very much)

I'm living with my dad when I get out and I'm glad I can again do all the personal things for myself.

Anyway. That's where I've been.

Le Sigh


I am officially Bipolar with a severe Anxiety Disorder to go along with it.

Hopefully all the lovely drugs will fix it.


Dear You.

Despite your belief to the contrary, our workplace is not a child minding centre. Your obnoxious child taking over MY office before I got into work and refusing to leave really shat me.

Your child speaking back to me shat me.

You buying your child copious amounts of sugar and encouraging them to use my office shat me.

Your child is a little shit. You are soooo off my Christmas Card list this year.

Your child looking over my shoulder while I have CONFIDENTIAL information open on my computer is so not okay and I am well within my rights to object.

Your kid is lucky I didn't backhand them...

Everyone else manages to find somewhere for their kids to be during the school holidays. And those that on the very ODD occasion bring there kids for an hour or two ensure that the kids don't disrupt the office. Hell, I actually LIKE a couple of them and don't mind if they use MY office as it is closer than the staff room downstairs. Especially with the younger ones.

Your kid is old enough to know better.

No love.


PS: I don't care you're a single parent.

Perhaps not a good thing....

I don't know if any of you have ever done this? But today I spent about an hour, hour and a half at work considering what I'd do if stranded with the people in the office on a deserted island. I then had to ponder in a very "lord of the flies" type way what we'd all do.

Then there's the "who would be most useful"

And that led to "Who would I most want to be stranded with during a war/plane crash/sinking ship...


Can you tell I was bored today?


Oh dear.

Today, the first of July is obviously the start of the new financial year. End of Financial Year reports did not run automatically Queensland wide last night.

All systems are down, including email and tils and stock reporting.

At least I have the interweb.

Hope you’re all well.

It'd be funny if it wasn't so crappy

So Tired

Agoraphobia is worse.

Work is very hard at the moment.

I've had a week off due to panic attacks.

God damn it.

Because it is my birthday.

I have brilliant friends. Who took me out for tea. And love me. And left funny web links in all of my cards


Marvel at the lovely phoenix

New Tattoo. Not the best pic I'm afraid. It's all cloudy and rainy here today. Still marvel at the lovely. Can't really see the green very well. There's actually very little yellow in the tattoo. mostly green, magenta and blue. Custom Tattoo makes me happy. I love the phoenix.