Well.

I am officially Bipolar with a severe Anxiety Disorder to go along with it.

Hopefully all the lovely drugs will fix it.

Dear You.

Despite your belief to the contrary, our workplace is not a child minding centre. Your obnoxious child taking over MY office before I got into work and refusing to leave really shat me.

Your child speaking back to me shat me.

You buying your child copious amounts of sugar and encouraging them to use my office shat me.

Your child is a little shit. You are soooo off my Christmas Card list this year.

Your child looking over my shoulder while I have CONFIDENTIAL information open on my computer is so not okay and I am well within my rights to object.

Your kid is lucky I didn't backhand them...


Everyone else manages to find somewhere for their kids to be during the school holidays. And those that on the very ODD occasion bring there kids for an hour or two ensure that the kids don't disrupt the office. Hell, I actually LIKE a couple of them and don't mind if they use MY office as it is closer than the staff room downstairs. Especially with the younger ones.

Your kid is old enough to know better.

No love.

Me

PS: I don't care you're a single parent.

I don't know if any of you have ever done this? But today I spent about an hour, hour and a half at work considering what I'd do if stranded with the people in the office on a deserted island. I then had to ponder in a very "lord of the flies" type way what we'd all do.

Then there's the "who would be most useful"

And that led to "Who would I most want to be stranded with during a war/plane crash/sinking ship...


Yeah.


Can you tell I was bored today?

Oh dear.

Today, the first of July is obviously the start of the new financial year. End of Financial Year reports did not run automatically Queensland wide last night.

All systems are down, including email and tils and stock reporting.

At least I have the interweb.

Hope you’re all well.


It'd be funny if it wasn't so crappy

Agoraphobia is worse.

Work is very hard at the moment.

I've had a week off due to panic attacks.

God damn it.

I have brilliant friends. Who took me out for tea. And love me. And left funny web links in all of my cards

http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=ej1ylPIk44o596+

New Tattoo. Not the best pic I'm afraid. It's all cloudy and rainy here today. Still marvel at the lovely. Can't really see the green very well. There's actually very little yellow in the tattoo. mostly green, magenta and blue. Custom Tattoo makes me happy. I love the phoenix.

Because it made me laugh.

*Sighs.* Because it is true


more animals

Okay. Okay. So I know that I've been MIA for a long while. I'm sorry. I really am. Today though I discovered I'd been recommended for. And received! A PROMOTION! I walked upstairs to the meeting I'd been called for and they offered me a new job out of the blue. So now I'm the Community Liason. And get a crap load more money. Flexible hours. AND NO CUSTOMERS. So in other words. YAY ME. Ask if you want. And I'll tell you more about the new job of greatness. Edit: Not a statewide job. It's actually about half a region. Which is plenty big enough for me.

Last night was a night of super big happy fun. I'm a happy and very tired and somewhat hungover kind of Rai right now. Work had a function at the Calemvale (spelling? who knows) hotel and there was about a hundred of us there. The boy and I went and I have to say we both looked smashing. I curled my hair and had numerous people actually petting me all evening. *grins* A lot of them didn't recognise me either. It's not exactly worth getting dolled up for work given I work at Bunnings and it's a giant dusty tin shed and I'm covered in paint half the time. 

It was apparently a night of pick on Rai, which had the boy very much amused. Litessa was 'jealous' of the the boy and spent the night flirting with me in front of him which had both the boy, and her boy Bully terribly amused. I've got to say though, that at about two o'clock this morning she left a very nice hicky on my  neck. She said if David wasn't going to mark me she would. In retrospect? It was a lot funnier at the time, but I'm still giggling now and am happy that I work with such genuinely lovely people.

The boy and Bully (aka Steven) get on very well, which is good for me because they can happily be left alone while we go off and dance and flirt outrageously and are generally just laughing at our co-workers who are trying to work out if it's some sort of wierd foursome we're involved with as both boys are happy to jokingly flirt with eachother.

My aunt was kind enough to let us sleep at her house as she lives just the road. She dropped us off and we walked home after we the boys got us kicked out of the pub early this morning.

He's just left for home actually and I'm kinda glad for the quiet. He's a very outgoing boy and as much as I adore him, I'm glad for the quiet time.

 I havn't been around much lately, and I'm sorry for that, but at times I just need to curl up into my shell and ignore you all. It's something that's gotten worse of late, but I'm making a concerted effort to do less of it. Cutting myself off from people. But you know? I just wish I didn't always have to be the one to reach out to people. Is it too much to ask that my 'friends' people I've known for years would ring me, or email me without me making the first move. I hear more from the  school friends in Alice Springs and Toowoomba then I do of those in Brisbane.

Anyway. Morgan, my kitty was killed about a month ago, she must have slipped out the door and was hit by a car. Work's good, my family is all well, my sorta kinda almost boyfriend is well also. Things aren't too bad here. We just had mother's day as many of you know I'm sure. And that again causes me to want to retreat away. I've had a pretty bad couple of months. Pretty fucking terrible in fact, but things are looking up.

It's why I tend not to write when I'm feeling like that. Why inflict my pessimism on everyone else.*laughs* It's not a fair thing to do. Hence the silence from my part of Australia.

Anyway. As always. I hope you're all well. And safe, and happy.

May god watch over T. Who he took too soon.

Our dog died this morning. Went to the vet for a check up, they gave her a needle, she had a heart attack and died. I'm really going to miss the big lug.

Neets is especially upset, she can't have kids due to a fall down a flight of stairs about ten years ago. So Sasha was kinda her baby. Bear and I are thinking about going and getting a German Shepherd puppy tonight. It seems like we're rushing it I guess. But we're all so used to there being a dog in the house.

Alaskan Malamutes are hard to find around these parts, and Shepherds are big and nice dogs and a lot easier to find.

Morgan-the cat, is wandering around the house, clearly looking for Sash. She's been sulking all morning and actually curled up on Sasha's food bowl to sleep earlier when they got home from the vet without Sasha. Who says pets aren't smart hmm?